Doubt

After talking in length in my last post about the wonderous topic of waiting, a thought occured to me, and that was how quick doubt is to spring to the surface of our mind. Even more so when waiting. In that moment when all you can think of is what ever you're waiting for, you ask yourselves questions, and most of those start with 'what if'.
What if everything I want happens?
What if I'm hoping for too much and things will be fine but not great?
What if I'm actually completely deluded and insane?
The last one is often the one you settle on.
There's an expression: to plant the seed of doubt in your mind. I can't think of a better metaphor for it. Because doubt does nothing but grow once it's found a nice cosy little spot in your mind, in the back where it can't be examined too closely but close enough that you can hear it's pestering little voice. And in the end, when that seed of doubt has grown into a monstrous and incredibly time-consuming tree, you tend to doubt things that you know are ridiculous, but that you cling onto as if feeling terrible is actually the hip new thing.
Everybody doubts. Over things like their hair, their looks, maybe even their personality. And everybody doubts their own talent at one point of another.
So what is the point in doubt? Maybe it's meant to build our character, because I suppose if you doubt something about yourself, you work on it until you don't need to second guess it anymore. Until you've passed that stage. But most of the time you can't banish doubt on your own. When we know the doubt is ridiculous, we can solve it ourselves, but when we truly believe it we seek someone to argue it. Someone to give you confirmation.
Oh the curses of doubt.
On another note, moving from that topic, I stumbled across this blog. This guy does some pretty amazing drawings. I hope he doesn't doubt his talent because he's got plenty of it.
Have a look:
http://questforanimationglory.blogspot.com/search/label/character%20designs